A little clarity for the next step...

We just finished meeting with one of the folks that are helping us. Truthfully, I have a little more anxiety at this point. Nothing has changed except we have a little more insight into what tomorrow holds. We have an appointment at 2 P.M. tomorrow (that's 6 A.M. Hattiesburg time). We will meet with a psychologist and a social worker from the SDA. If we understood correctly, they will have approximately 12 files of children under 8 for us to look over and choose from. I have got to say, we are thinking, "Wow, what's that going to look like?" We expect that some will have ominous profiles indicating everything from major medical issues to abadonment by parents for no apparent reason. We will be able to consult with a physician by phone to discuss medical issues, but ultimately, we will have one hour to make a decision. We have been told that the likeihood is that in order to get a child under 8, we should expect a sibling group. That's not outside of what we came expecting. This is it. It all comes down to one hour tomorrow, and I am feeling a mixture of anxiety and confidence as we wait. Anxious because I am weak. Confident because God is not!!!! I have to admit that even typing this moves me to tears. The human part of me wants to have everthing laid out for a storybook ending. The believing part of me wants to act like the Father! I don't know how to choose!!! Reason says we should pick the youngest and the healthiest. Experience tells me that I am glad God didn't use the same criteria for me. In the end, I just pray that God will move us to know how to choose. I have never felt more weak and frail. I am glad I have a big Dad! If you are an early riser, we would ask you to pray for us at 6 tomorrow morning. Jesus gave us the example of prayer and the stories like that of the persistent widow for a reason. Persistence and petition are part of God's design. I still really don't understand it all. I just believe it. I figure a bunch of people dialling up the Father at the same time is a good thing!

As far as we can see now, the best case scenerio is that we would receive a referral tomorrow. If it is for multiple children, the best would be that they are located in the same town and the same orphanage. The ultimate gift would be that they are located in a region that is easy to work in for adoptions. So, I guess under the principle of "you ask not cause you have not," we are asking God for that list. But, ultimately we just want to find who God sent us here for!